two more days/two more papers, and i’ll be done with year II. (i’m actually still exhausted from beating myself up last night after a pretty horrible 241 paper. just thankful that 234 wasn’t that bad. but went to th portal just a few hours ago to see that i failed a 236 paper.)
i am probably really not meant for this - i’ve accepted that.
i want to graduate though, because of th ‘standard clause in every study loan agreement’ or whatever, and i don’t want to come home from india breaking my parents’ hearts, again.
it is quite an unpleasant feeling that i have to accept though. that after 5 years of holding on to th dream, th harsh reality is that i’m actually not good enough for psychology.
but, i guess,
‘…whoever strives to be patient, Allah will make him patient.’ (Al-Bukhari)